Credit Crunch

Read http://shobanjraveen.blogspot.com/ on his 'Credit Crunch' (16 June) entry.

It would put things in a different light. =)

Sleep driving

On Monday, I drove home from work.
I stopped at a traffic light.
Looked around wondering what the sequence was.

The next thing i know, someone was blaring his honk at me.
Huh?

I'd fallen asleep on the wheel!

I looked ahead.
There was a huge gap between me and the front car.

That means, the car behind has been honking me for some time.

Sigh.

I've lost the stamina to drive at night.
As soon as i get into my car, fatigues steps in.

I blame this on Solo.
He pampers me too much.
When I was studying (or slogging), the only time i would actually get a good rest was in his car as he drives me for dinner.
I think my brain has programmed my body to sleep in the car.

It used to happen only at night.
But in recent weeks, I have to fight sleep even in the morning.

So far, thank God, nothing has happened.
There has been many near misses... but the angels are keeping me and my Lisa safe.

I need to work on my stamina.
This 'disease' is hindering my social life

Like yesteday, I had to turn Solomon's invitation down to go to TARC CF for fear that i would not be able to drive home later.

Solo is pretty much freaked out also.
Cos he stays on the line with me as i drive to accompany me.
And i'd be talking gibberish, scolding him for no reason or just screaming when i'm sleep driving.

Poor him..
But it's all his fault!!

Bex

1 down..

Finished CFP Module 1 yesterday!
Woo hoo!
It went ok.
Had some tough questions.
Results out in August i think!

I shall force myself to enjoy and NOT stress for ONE week.
Just ONE.

And then i will think of what else to study.

Will be deferring my CFP modules for a while.
I think.
Not conclusive just yet.

I think I'm addicted to exams.

ENJOY I MUST..
for.. ONE week.

Actually..i think i need to learn how to have fun!

bex

Tired but still going on

I've been sleeping very little lately.
Sleep around 11pm.
Wake up at 2am.
Work.
Sleep at 5.30am.
Wake up at 6.00am.
Get ready for work.
Work till bout 6.30pm.
Dinner.
Study till 9.30pm.
Go home.
Shower.
Sleep.

How am I sustaining myself?
My head feels light and it takes a lot of focus to be in control of my words, thoughts and emotions.
When I'm tired, I get cranky and snappy.
Or I just lose focus and start talking incoherently.

But I believe God is pushing me.
Keeping me.
Every morning as I drive, I know I have to spend time in His presence.
Just to draw from His well every morning.
To date, I'm ok.
I don't know bout tomorrow.
Thank you Lord.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

There was a fire drill today.
Bell rang.
I saved my work.
Closed my computer.
Packed my purse and phone.
Took the painful steps down 11 floors.
My wound had actually stopped bleeding this morning.
I could see that it was alraedy dried and no expose raw flesh.
The walk today must have reversed the healing process.
Cos I checked, and I saw a patch of blood on my sole.
Sigh.

Someone I know had the time to change into sport shoes before walking down.
The walk down was so slow and long.
Seriously, if there was a real fire, I'd be dead by now.
Bottlenecks on the stairs.

I didn't realise there were so many people in these 2 towers till today.
Thousands and thousands!

Felt like school all over again!
Hehe...

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

I did a very hard thing today.
I prayed for someone for her exam.
I don't know why I struggled with it.
I have done well in this exam and perhaps wished to stay so.
Pride...lots of pride.
I'm a bad Christian.
Sigh.
I prayed anyways.
The same prayer that I would always pray for myself.
I must...need to learn to not lean on success.
I can't describe why i struggled to pray.
I just did.
Oh well..
Maybe i'm just tired.

Bex

It's Friday!

This is the most relaxing Friday ever!

Normally, on Fridays, I will be rushing to CG straight after work.

Tired, hungry and sleepy.

Most of the times, by Friday, my energy will be zapped.

And then i would have to wait till Sunday to recharge... spritually and physically.

After my last blog entry, I could really feel a difference.

Even with the little sleep, I felt somewhat revived.

There was better focus and my ear didnt annoy me that much.

In fact, yesterday, there was a time where the pulse disappeared for a while.

Just for 5 seconds.

I really appreciated that 5 seconds of peace.

Thank you Lord for answering my prayer.

Once again, it reminds me that nothing is too small or silly for our Lord.

Imagine, the same God who built the universe, raise the dead...actually listens to our petty cries!

Isn't His love just so amazing?

Hmm.. I feel a long entry cominng.

Will keep it short.

So, here I am in Starbucks, One Utama Old Wing.

Taking a break.

Solomon is in front of me... lazing on the couch, preparing for his Sunday worship.

I just finished choreographing the activity for B.O.M.B tomorrow.

Tomorrow's topic is bout keeping the flame after camp.

I didn't go for camp this year but it;s my turn to plan the activity for youth service.

Lord, please move in service tomorrow!

Keep the flame alive in us Lord!

So anyways,... it's so relaxing here.

The past few weeks, after work, I have been sitting in MPH studying for my CFP exam which is next Saturday! yikes!

It's been hectic and draining.

Today, I decided to give myself a break.

No studies. No work.

Just spend time brainstorming with Solomon and enjoying each other's company.

Something we rarely do.

Cos we are both just so busy.

I just can't stop thinking bout how relaxing today is!

I wish everyday could be like this.

No rush. No "quick quick..i got things to do!"

In college, I thought that I would be able to spend more time with Solomon once I start working cos I wouldn't be so worried bout studying all the time.

When I started working, I became busy with work, church and my CFP course. Once again, no time to spend with him.

Was feeling rather guilty bout it.

Talking bout guilt... that's another long post for another day.

Solomon has been a very patient partner.

Always accomodating to my busyness and limited time.

Willing to put up with my temper when I'm stressed (which is most of the time).

Creative when it comes to thinking of how to spend the little time we have together e.g. half and hour lunches or dinner, the short distance from my office to my car in the parking lot, etc.

Calm when I get all confused which happens very often.

Forgiving even though I've hurt him beyond measure with my stupidity.

Funny when I need a hearty laugh.

Serious when I need a heart-to-heart talk.

(No... he's not going to buy me any shoes for writing all these good stuff bout him!)

So Solomon, this post is dedicated to you!

Thanks for always being there!

Hugs!

Us at Genting - Dec 2008