Yes, I know.
I've not been updating.
Kinda got sucked into the life of an auditor.
My final 2 weeks in audit before I return to a full blown tax peak on the 11th floor of KPMG tower.
Can't say that I'm too excited about that.

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One of the biggest struggle in my life is managing my finances.
Try as I might, I can't seem to save.
It's frustrating as I've been working for about 1 1/2 years now and my savings are 'immaterial' (as the auditors would put it).
I was reflecting on this issue as I was driving to work for my second shift (it's an audit thing..).

As soon as my salary comes in, I would withdraw RM1k for my tithes, parent's allowance, parking top-up, toll top-up and phone bill. The remaining balance would probably sustain me for about a week of food.

The following week, I'll definitely need to withdraw again to pay off my credit bills and for my petrol and food.

I hardly do any shopping except for the vital items like facial care and contact lens and its peripherals.

Since January, I've stopped using my credit card for petrols in my efforts to curb my spending. So, it's mostly cash transactions now unless I did not have enough cash with me at the particular moment.

Each month, I make a budget and it would appear that i can save.
But at month end, none of my budget would materialise.
I have a going concern issue (another one of those audit jargons)

But today, as I was driving, God gave me a word of comfort.
I felt it in my spirit that God was saying "You are placing your money in heaven's bank account and the interests you reap will be so much more than what you can place in earth's banks".
It's strange and bizaar I know.
But it was deeply comforting to know that God knows and hears my plight.
He knows my struggles.
Just knowing that He still hears me and still looks out for me is good news already.
The fact that He acknowledges my givings is an added bonus.
So Praise the Lord!

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I wonder whether I would suffer in the future as a result of my lack of sleep in my youth now....

-Bex-

First time

Today was my first time.
It was exhilarating.
It was difficult to stay away when the temptation was so intense.
I was inexperienced and yet it wasn't as difficult as I thought it would be.
Maybe cos I had someone to teach me.
I wish I could do it again.... and maybe I will.
Today was my first time auditing a store stock count. =)

Monday blues

It's Monday. Yipee......not!
Back to the rat race.

(I think I need to stop feeling so negative)

Got.to.move.on

Anyone knows of nice, good paying jobs?
Somewhere in Shah Alam?
I think I'm losing my fire.
Feels like I'm losing my purpose.
Like I don't know why i exist anymore.
Time to move on.
Or maybe just need time to reflect.

Money money

I need help.
Desperate help.
Someone teach me how to manage my finances please.
I do not know where my money is going.
It's mid-month.
And there are still bills to be paid.
I'm up to my neck already.
Super depressed.
Help!