Rain + sleep

It was raining this morning.
Nice soft rain.
Not the scary ones.

I wanted to just stay in bed.

It took me 5 attempts to get myself up and head for the shower.

Sigh.
I want to lie in bed and day dream.

Bex

F1

Just found out that 1Malaysia F1 team is recruiting.
Trying won't hurt right? hehe.

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Got back from Solo's church retreat yesterday.
Had a good time.
Felt more comfortable with his church setting.
Starting to fit in I guess.
I like how his church is so closely connected.

Went for white-water rafting for the first time.
Fun!!
But I wished that it was more terrifying.
It was only a Grade 1, 2 & 3 river so not much excitement.
But it was an experience.

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Back to work.
Sigh..

Bex

Regrets I have a few

Sometimes I wish I could turn back time.
To stop myself from doing what I did.
Alas, too late now.
The memories stil haunt me.
And I know it hurts you too.
I'm sorry.
I want to let it go.
But it's hard to move on.
Even though we pretend it's behind us.
We both know that it's lingering in the shadows.
Sigh.
Regrets.. regrets.

Bex

Career Quiz

Read this from Sue May's blog.
Decided to give it a try.

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You would be very happy in a career that utilised your level-headedness, and allowed you to work mainly on your own. You want a career that allows you to be creative (but... i'm NOT creative!) , without having to be involved with lots of people (true..). Some careers that would be perfect for you are:

• Artist (Hah!)
  
• Historian (*Yawns*)
  
• Banker (Is this the same field as taxation? Then, I'm in the right job)
  
• Novelist (One of my many childhood ambitions until I realised that I was nothing special)
  
• University Professor (Maybe in years to come.. if i ever develop a love for reading journals)
  
• Photographer (Actually, I have a small interest in photography now)
  
• Vet (Another of my childhood dream until I did miserably in STPM)
  
• Paralegal (Gave thought to this but some lawyer friends told me to back off from stealing thier rice bowl)
  
• Graphic Designer (In my wildest dreams...)
  
• Online Content Developer (What's this?)
  
• Webmaster (No way!)
  
• Producer (Ooh... interesting...)
  
• Managing Director (Hehe... I don't mind!)
  
• Nutritionist (First, I need to nutrify myself)
  
• Advertising (And then my client would go bankrupt..)
  
• Nursing (Nah... I'm not that nice)

You like working and being alone. You like to avoid attention at all costs. You tend to keep to yourself, and not interact much with the people around you. You enjoy spending time with a few a close friends. You like to listen to others, but don't like sharing much about yourself. You are very quiet and private. (As much as this is hard to believe, I really like to be alone)

You are very practical, and only act after thinking things through. You don't like being forced to answer quickly. You have to evaluate the situation completely. You make decisions based on what you can verify with your senses.

You like to be deeply involved in one or two special projects. You like to be behind the scenes. You are very logical and fair. You feel you should be honest with others and protect their feelings.

You trust your gut instincts. You are easily inspired and trust that inspiration. You are very innovative. You analyse things by looking at the big picture. You are concerned about how what you do affects others. You worry about your actions and the future. You tend to use a lot of metaphors and are very descriptive and colourful in your choice of language.

You are very creative (I seriously doubt this) and get bored easily (very true) if you don't get to express yourself. You like to learn new things. You don't like the same old routine. You like to leave your options open. (Haha.. still am... hehe..)

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Maybe I took the test half-heartedly. Somehow, the description above doesn't sound like me. Maybe it is me and I'm living a pretentious life. Or in denial. Hmm..

Latest record

Newest record for staying in office : 4 am and returning back to the the office by 8.30am.

Enough said.

Bex

Money money

I know I promised pics.
Haven't gotten round to organising them.
Bah.

Sidetrack a little.
Solomon and I are really struggling to pay for the house.
We need a downpayment of RM 14,350 (5% of the cost of RM 307,000 less RM 1,000 booking fee).

I think we are RM 10,000 short.
It is frustrating.
There is nothing that you can do without money.

God is faithful.
He has placed certain people in our lives who just came up and asked " you need money? we lend to you first..."
Of that, I'm truly grateful.

The thing is because of this downpayment, I won't get to go to Japan next year.
I thought of saving RM 500 per month so that by next year, I would have more than enough for my vacation.
I guess it's a trade-off la.
Which is more important?
Which do you want more?

It's scary.
Like now, sometimes we argue...
Over money.
Yikes!
I get it.
Solomon is really stressed out over it.

And yesterday I felt even more stressed out.
When parents asked me to do 2nd job.
Out of office hours.
Crazy.
I need to rest.
Started talking bout how my dad could do it.
Well..I'm not him.
And I don't want to end up like him - a workaholic.

It's just one of the days.
I feel inadequate.

It's been 9 months since I started working.
But to be honest, I hardly have any savings.
Even though sometimes I deny myself of the things I want.. like good food.
I don't know why... I just can't save much.
Always something to spend on each month.

Sigh.

New place

I've been transferred to a new corporate tax unit.
Finally, graduated from pool training.

At least it's a better view now.
Got a window view.
Can see houses, condominiums and a building-in-progress.
If i stand, i get to see the LDP.

But it's also bittersweet.
Freedom is outside.
While i'm cooped inside.

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Filing ended on 14th August!
YEAY!
No more late nights.
No more work on weekends.
Yipee!

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Japanese girls came down for a week.
Went broke taking them out.
One night in KL Plaza.
2 nights in Berjaya Georgetown Penang.
2 nights in KL Plaza again.
Pics out soon.

Had fun though it was really tiring being tour guide.
Thank God I had Solomon to entertain them.
And Dih Haw who entertained them with anime stories.

It was a good break.

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Had mission trip to Lawas, Sarawak also.
Awesome awesome time.
Injured my right leg from mislanding after a jump while dancing around.
Lost my voice due to extensive singing and shouting.
But God was awesome.
He is doing a good work there.
And I miss the worship from the Longpasia group.
It was just so fun to dance in worship for 2 hours non-stop!!!

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I hope to travel to Japan next year.
Exactly one year from now.
Summer in Japan.
Yuka and Midori say that's the best time to travel.
Hopefully can save enough la.

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Trying to get loan for our house.
And the downpayment.
Yikes!

Back to work.
Bex